I don’t usually use this blog as a platform for personal matters, but for the sake of saying I just need to vent a bit. The last week has been rather frustrating. It’s definitely getting to the point that it feels like life is just piling on at the moment. Corina and I are 2 and half months away from getting married and I’ve been without a job since the end of May, so as you might guess things have been anxious of late since my severance is running up in a couple of weeks. Then last Wednesday we had a bombshell dropped on us by our landlord. She can’t afford to own this house anymore, so unfortunately we might have to move if the house sells. That is pretty much the last thing I wanted to be worrying about before the wedding.

I just feel torn in so many directions. I’ve been tossing the idea around of working freelance as a means to make ends meet, but I don’t feel that I’m really at that point in my career where I want to be working on my own full-time. At the same time I’ve been looking for work in a market that has pretty much dried up for the summer. I lost out on a job last week that I was in the final 2 for consideration after a 5 week hiring process. That just felt like a kick in the teeth. And now to add a possible apartment search into the mix just seems like too much.

The part that really annoys me about this is how my life took such a left hand turn all of the sudden. If you were to have asked me 3 months ago how my life was, I probably would have told you that it couldn’t be better. I was getting married and on track to be able to pretty much pay for everything without too much issue. I had a job I really liked, working with people I really liked. I had a great apartment, central to pretty much everything that Corina and I weren’t planning on moving out of until we bought a house. So safe to say I haven’t been pleased with what’s happened in my life the last while.